Right so in this dream I was at some school. It reminded me of my old middle school in San Francisco, it was big and old. A lot of secret areas in there. So for some reason I have a class with "Saito" (now Saito is this one guy that I was liking...he was liking too...to someone else and couldn't tell me how he felt before he got into a relationship with her...so yes my hurt hearts...I say heart not broken because my heart was never his to begin with). And out teacher had us pair up for some "getting to know one another". Coincidentally enough it was with him. So I proceed to not follow the agenda, cut through the small talk and let him know how I feel.
"I am not harboring any ill will towards your girlfriend, but what you did to me was very shabby.
I was falling for you like a ton of bricks. I understand that we live far away, but I would have been willing to travel to see you more. It would not have been a big issue for me. However, since you KNEW how I felt about you, why couldn't you tell me how YOU feel?"
(At this point he's getting nervous and looking around the room for help)
" I would have rather you tell me "hey I wanna know what you're feeling about us, because I'm having feelings for this other girl." See? Gets to the point, and it saves me a lot of time wondering "oh is he gonna like me enough for me to his girl?"
"And this is how I'm going to leave this: I still want us to be friends, I don't like animosity with people that I had a thing with & I hope your lady doesn't treat you like crap, although you lied to me, in reality I don't want you to feel the hurt that i'm feeling now...but if she does:
What goes around, comes around"
At this point he does show some remorse, apologizes, didn't realize how much I liked him and that was that. It was enough for me and the bell rings. I leave to meet up with Lil' Magic & Ms. NightGaze (NG for short). We end up going to some mall & lo and behold how do I see in the shoe store but no other than Mr. Pau Gasol
...he was with his agent just hanging out before a game. We end bumping into each other and start talking (I suppose we had met each other before hand & were getting to know each other on a friendly basis. Lil' Magic & Ms. NG started to walk away chuckling at us...it was cute...they wanted to leave us alone. So after a while he started to look weird...he morphed himself into Gaspard Auge from Justice...it was so weird too because as he was morphing "D.A.N.C.E." was playing on the loudspeakers. haa haa!
So then I wake up. Even though it was bittersweet I felt much better. I'm not sure if he will ever read this but at least I was able to write out my feelings about this situation..
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